I don’t deal well with feelings. I have such an emotional burden upon me, For the last 5 years I ignored it. I self harmed, did drugs, deprived myself of sleep and food, all so that these overwhelming emotions would stop. They did, they really did, except I never noticed. I was in constant hazy pain, My back hurt constantly, I had migraines that lasted for days Id be lucky for a full day without hurting. I traded off my emotional pain for physical pain, but never noticed because I still hurt constantly. I could go on into my desent. But I don’t have enough tears to finish it.
Wonderlesslust 